Plan B.

Do you have a plan B in life? I don’t.

Some say that if you have a plan B, your plan A didn’t really matter.

But now I disagree.

Some of us have been working too much already and focused on achieving plan A, we don’t even think of what else we would do if plan A gets completely crushed and destroyed?

I’ve always envied people with a full time job and side hustles. I struggle just staying “ON” with my full time job sometimes, I don’t even have the mental capacity for a side hustle… is that an excuse? I never felt that I could ever have the ability to divide my attention. Does this mean I’ve been lazy and complacent? But then how did I burn myself out?

I don’t have the privilege of others around me with parents backing them. It’s always been me for myself.

Maybe I just don’t have the capacity to do that much anymore. There are people who wake up at 5am ready to go… I used to be one of them. But what does that even feel like anymore?

Maybe my goals were too short sighted and I underestimated the longevity of it all, just never really thought about it to be honest. Maybe I thought life would flow upward as long as I worked hard at plan A…. but now what?

#MySelfReminder- I have no idea and my intuition is telling me its okay for now to sit with it but that time is coming to expire soon. My heart is feeling so incapable and inadequate but this is where I have to move onto my plan B, whatever that is. Now if only someone would take a chance on me…

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